UGH

SOOOO lately I have been pretty confused, you saw my last post about how grateful I am for my life and the things that have happened...well, of course I"m missing someone ONCE AGAIN...and I can't get him out of my head. Day & night... I try and keep myself busy so I don't have to think about him but everyday just gets harder and harder. Part of me thinks I want to get into a relationship and then I actually start getting "into" one and back right out. I think I just like the idea of getting over the love of my life, which I don't know if I ever will. If anyone has any advice... besides "get over it" (cuz i'm trying).... let me know. Thanks :)

{this is how I feel}

Loving Life

So... I really haven't blogged for awhile and I'm not very good at keeping it up to date haha. BUUUUT It's a good thing that I'm not blogging as much as I used to, cuz that means i'm not sitting at home :) .... I really am living my life lately, and having fun doing it, meeting new people, doing new things..loving it all. I find myself thinking about the past 4 months, not exactly thinking "What was I thinking" but more of... "What the HELL was I thinking" hahaha. I can't believe I spent 4 months cooped up at home, not going out and having fun, waiting for a certain someone. Everyone has gotta live life, and my time is now! I hope to live like I've never lived before, and die with no regrets.

I have also been thinking about my life, and where i'm going with it. I have a lot of friends who are married, engaged, pregnant or all of the above. For awhile, I was looking at it with jealousy and envy wondering what I didn't do to get where they are today but I know my time will come. I am SOOOO excited for all my friends having babies, so many of them :) Now everytime I go shopping, I have to look at baby stuff...haha, these babies will be so spoiled and I can't wait to meet all of them. I have decided that I will start school in the Spring, probably just at UVU unless something changes and I end up moving. I SHOULD move to Salt Lake since I'm there about half or more than half of the week anyway, but...we'll see.

I hope all my friends know how much I love and appreciate them, I really wouldn't be able to make it through the day without all of you! :) Keep smiling, stay positive and ENJOY life!

muah

love, me

Movie Review: Funny People

Not as funny as I thought it would be, I don't like movies that are serious mixed in with "funny." Really long...like two and a half hours long... dragged on a lot. Even though there were some pretty hilarious parts, I still probably wouldn't see it again.

One Month

SOOOO today Kati has officially been my roomie for a month! ahahha. Unfortunately...I have plans and she works late so we can celebrate another time, but I just love this girl and I'm so glad she lives with me!

Bedroom Makeover

SO I was getting so sick of my room, and I finally saved up the money to re-do it or give it a "makeover." I took a few days off work, and my mom came out and helped. We had so much fun!! Here are the before and after pics....

......BEFORE.......

....Painting the wall......

*AFTER*


..... Up Close

It's Already AUGUST!

WOW! Time flies... I can't believe we are already in the month of August. I have had a lot of things happen in the last month, and I'm excited for a lot of things coming.. so here we go!

What HAS happened:
-I'm single
-I hang out in SLC a LOT...
- I got a new phone (Blackberry Tour) ---love it!

What I'm looking forward to:
- Lots of commission
- Re-decorating my bedroom w/ my Mom (in progress)
- MAYBE Lake Powell
- Going to see the movie "Time Travelers Wife" with my Mom
- Summer Jam
- My friends FINALLY being done w/ summer school
- Planning my trip to Atlanta, Georgia to see AMANDA in September :))))
- More fun memories!

I'm IT! You're NEXT!

8 Things I'm Looking Forward To:
1- Lake Powell
2- Vegas
3- Re-modeling my bedroom
4- Getting my hair done
5- Modeling class
6- All my friends babies :)
7- Huka bar on Wed night
8- Time w/ my MOM :)

8 Things I Did This Weekend:
1- Ate Chili's leftovers
2- Worked
3- Party @ Skylers
4- Played beer pong
5- Hung w/ sissy
6- Layed Out
7- James
8- Went to walmart

8 Things I Wish I Could Do:
1- Get over it
2- Move on
3- Fly
4- Read minds
5- Conquer all my fears
6- See the future
7- Make everybody happy
8- Win the lottery

8 Shows I Watch:
1- Sex & The City
2- Friends
3- Will & Grace
4- Still Standing
5- Family Guy
6- America's Next Top Model
7- The Real World
8- Chelsea Lately

8 Places I'd Like To Travel:
1- Hawaii :) again
2- The East coast
3- Paris
4- Brazil
5- Australia
6- Cancun
7- Italy
8- Fiji

8 People I Tag:
1- Kati
2- Miquel
3- Whitney H.
4- Amanda
5- Kayla Chivers
6- Brandi Dilworth
7- Jamie Reeves
8- Marlie